86/365

March 26
Can it really be possible that my baby is one? That a year ago I was in the hospital? Where has all of that time gone? I think we have really cherished every moment and have spent quality time with Gavin. I look forward to all of the great memories and all of the new life adventures and watching Gavin learn, but part of me is a little sad because my first born son is no longer a baby! He is now officially a toddler!

85/365

March 25
While I went to work Sean Gavin Grandma and Grandpa headed to the rainforest. It was even so nice they were able to go to the zoo for a little bit too!

84/365

March 24,
Happy Birthday Eddie! I worked today (and tomorrow) and I will be off Thursday and Friday for Gavin's birthday. So after work I met Gavin and Sean at Eddie's for his birthday.

83/365

March 23,
I LOVE getting prizes in the mail even when I am the one who ordered it and know it is coming. Gavin's Easter basket was sitting by our front door when I came home from work today. Perhaps it is too big? Are you suppose to be able to fit inside your Easter basket? Perhaps that should be a requirement...

82/365

Mar 22,
Sean came home today after being gone since Wednesday. He went riding with a bunch of boys for some male bonding time. It was much colder on our walk this afternoon than it looked. Thankfully Gavin was toasty in his winter bear outfit. Sean put Gav in his work car aka beater car that is on its last leg. However Gavin enjoyed sitting in the driver seat playing with the steering wheel.

81/365

March 21,
Gavin and I did a bunch of running around today. I am very excited that I bought Gavin's birthday gift! We got him a water and sand table. I am sure he will love to play with it!

80/365

March 20,
Happy Spring! Even though it does not feel like Spring at all in the lovely midwest, however a few days ago it did. (That is when this picture was taken) This feels like Happy Spring picture to me!

79/365

March 19,
The proof that a family of three live in this house.

78/365

March 18,
Another nice day! You can't really tell from the picture but Gavin was mimicking the dogs panting. He had his tongue out, making the funny noise and bouncing up and down. (The dogs were panting after playing in the yard!

77/365

March 17,
It was a beautiful day today. Christi and Grace came over so that we could go for a walk on the tow path. The original plan was to head to the zoo, but I had a major back spasm earlier in the morning. I didn't really want to push myself plus every time I picked up Gavin my back went into even more spasm. He doesn't even weigh that much! We played outside a little also. Then a little before dinner time Gavin started acting cranky and clingy which is very unlike him. At dinner, his lips looked a little blue, but I figured he was just a little cool since I had all the windows open earlier. As soon as we sat in the rocking chair, he was out like a light on my shoulder, again very unlike him. I noticed his respiration rate was fast and I made Sean came home. Gavin was exhausted and even Sean thought he was not acting like himself. After talking with the nurse, we headed to Hilcrest pediatric ER. After a breathing treatment, chest x-rays, some nose swaps, and a vomit covered mama and baby we took a very sleepy baby home with no real diagnosis. Sean went back to work and Gavin and I slept together in bed. Thankfully when he woke up the next morning he was back to his smiley self.

76/365

MARCH 16
Gavin and Daddy had a fun day hanging out at Grandma and Grandpa's. Daddy took Gavin for a ride on the four wheeler! He loved it of course!

75/365

March 15,
Today the three of us went to church. I always love going to church especially when my parents, my sister, my brother and his family, and my grandparents are there. It's a wonderful way to spend a Sunday morning. I was going to go without Sean and Gavin, but Gav decided not to take an am nap so we all went. After Gavin's nap we went for a walk since it was such a sunny day. Then we headed to the grocery store followed by dinner again at my parents. My Grandma Liz, Alice, Aunt Diane and crew, and my grandpa's sister were all over. The pic of the day is of Gavin and Anthony playing. Anthony would build the blocks up for Gavin to knock down.

74/365

March 14
Today we buried my Grandpa. It by far was the hardest day of the whole process. However, he has a beautiful spot right on the water (a pond or lake of some sort) I bet it is beautiful when all the trees are in bloom. I remember when he moved to ocean front property. He told me that he loved to open the door to watch and listen to the waves. He later moved to Port Orange to a beautiful home,but he always talked about moving back to the ocean. It is not the ocean, but his final resting place is by the water. Sean was one of the paul bearers (how do you even spell that?) and apparently there was a tree in their path that made it very difficult to place my grandpa on the casket stand. After the nice luncheon, Sean and I went back home and I took a quick nap. Then we headed over to my parents where some of the friends from church made all kinds of food. The picture of the day is of my Aunt Denise's lovely crew.

73/365

March 13,
I spent a good portion of Friday morning finalizing pictures for Grandpa's wake. I found some good pictures of us and I picked a picture of Sean Gavin and I to put in his casket. (Just writing those words don't seem to make sense, surely I am not burying my lovey grandpa) My mom worked really hard on trying to make sure there were pictures of everyone on the three boards. She needed a picture of Shelby and Grandpa. This picture was great because had all three of Aunt Denise's kiddos in it...Only one problem... Do you read what Chris's shirt says? Not exactly something you want hung up at Grandpa's funeral. So I had to figure out how to download it from my Aunt Denise's my space page then photoshop out the words. It took a little time, but it did make me laugh and at this point I will take anything that will make me laugh.

72/365

March 12,
This picture was actually take Tues early afternoon prior to finding out about my grandpa. Gavin loved playing with all of the fun toys at Step 2. He looks so big to me sitting at this "diner". He looks like a toddler!

71/365

March 11
Today Christi and Grace came over. Christi had a class to take at work so Gavin Grace and I hung out. Man would it be hard to have twins, but we had fun. It help to take my mind off of all the sad feelings

69/365

March 9
Low key day. Sean and Gav hung out while I went to work. I am looking forward to going to Step 2 tomorrow to buy Gavin's birthday present.

68/365

March 8
Oh what a day. I needed to go to Whole Foods today and I procrastinated all day. My mom kindly said that she would watch Gavin. I took Gavin over in attempts to quickly go get groceries. Well, soon after I finished at Trader Joes and Whole Foods, Sean called to tell me the power was out. So not only did I not have a cold place to put the over priced groceries, but I couldn't really get into the house because of the garage door! Thankfully Sean brought a cooler home and we were able to enter through the side door. The power was still not on and Gavin needed a bath. Gavin got a bath in Nana and Papi's kitchen sink!

67/365

March 7
What a beautiful day! I spend many minutes at my desk looking out this window and for what seems like forever it has been closed because of the cold and snowy winter weather of Cleveland. But today it was opened! It was so warm, 70 degrees in the beginning of March is great! Sean Gavin and I took advantage by going to Legacy and did some shopping and ate dinner. It was a beautiful night. On the way home I called my Grandpa to wish him a happy birthday! I got to talk to him for 20 minutes or so and he was telling me he was looking forward to going to Vegas on Tuesday!

70/365

March 10,
Good Morning to you, Good Morning to you, we are all in our places with bright sunny faces, This is the way we start a new day. I am posting my pictures out of order because I want to journal about March 10. Sean, Gavin and I were out shopping when my brother called to tell me that my grandpa has died. Grandma and Grandpa were on their way to Las Vegas when he apparently had a heart attack and the airplane had to make an emergency landing. I felt that I could not get to my mama fast enough. My poor Grandma has to be New Mexico for two days before they can fly to Cleveland. I have been thinking about her and just want to be with her. I don't want her to be alone. I want her to be with everyone who loves her and my grandpa. As I journal, it is 5 something in the morning on Wednesday and I just gone done feeding Gavin and rocking him back to sleep. I rocked and held onto him tight long. I am so grateful that I talked to my grandpa on Saturday and was able to tell him I loved him. I am glad that Gavin got to meet him and spend time with him. This summer he told me stories about his childhood, and about his parents that I have never heard. I am grateful that we went to Florida this past October and visited with him. While I was down thereI got to ask him more questions about various things. Some things I learned about him...He graduated from St. Ed's high school and he really didn't like school, but he liked workshop. If he would do things differently he would have gone to college for business. (Not that he really needed it, he was just a natural!) He really enjoyed building homes. He loved to watch war stories. The biggest challenge he ever faced was when he was 22 in Dec 1959 he was driving his convertible and was in a terrible car crash. He was unable to go back to his job, but he was unable to lift weights due to the back fusions. He refused to let that stop him from reaching his dreams. He never wanted to be poor like his parents were. In 1964 he started Foresters were he worked hard and was very successful until he retired. He also told me loved to take his girls sled riding when they were younger.

It always made me sad that he lived so far away, but I always enjoyed being with him. He always put a smile on my face. It makes me sad that I will never get to hug him again, that I will never hear his morning song again, although I sing it to Gavin every morning), I will never hear him whistling or feel him gently squeezing my ear or side of my cheek, or that he won't meet anymore of his great-grand children, or that he won't be here when one day I have another son to name him after my grandpa. I love you Thomas Roland Reisinger and I know that you are doing cartwheel with Jesus in Heaven.

66/365

March 6
Sean was in charge of the picture of the day today since I was at work. Sean and Gavin went to Heinen's for fish for dinner and to the Brecksville Metroparks. When I got home we went for a nice walk in the BOB on the tow path. Gavin loves to play with his ball popper that Aunt Denise, Uncle Kurt, and the girls got him. He loves to stick everything down the shoot; various size balls, blocks, his socks and anything else he can find to jam in there.

65/365

Mar 5,
Finally some warm weather even though I had to work. Gavin and I had our usually Daddy at work routine tonight. When I get home, Gavin and I eat dinner than we play and read books before bath time and bedtime routine. Gavin really loves books. He looks at them even when I am not reading to him. Hopefully he love to read as much as I do.

64/365

March 4
The sun is shining today and almost 40! The three of us headed to the Rainforest today. Here Gavin and I are walking along the path. He was trying to kick the plants out of the way and toppling over. I think he would have enjoyed playing in the dirt the entire time. I believe we need to get him a sand and water table.

63/365

Mar3
It is freezing outside! Yucko! Hello mother nature it is March! Didn't anyone tell you? Well by the end of the week it is suppose to be much warmer. Gavin and I were staying warm under the blanket and I was still some kisses. I hope he never becomes too big to kiss his Mama.

62/365

March 2,
Gavin wearing his hat that Aunt Carrie gave him and Rajah. Gavin loves to climb all over her and she is very good to him or atleast allows him to do so. Malakai won't sit still long enough for Gavin to play with him.

61/365

March 1
Today Sean made his fabulous lasagna and we had Grandpa C over for dinner since Grandma was in Florida. We do this every time Grandma is away. Well it turned into a party because Nana, Papi and Aunt Erica stopped by to see Gavin. Gavin is one lucky boy because he is loved very much!

60/365

Feb 28,
Wow was this a super busy day! Today I worked my first Saturday and was it crazy. The O.T. that was working promised me that it usually was not like this. We had 4 new admits and thankfully 1 was on hold. So we had 3 initial exams and they all were max assist x 3. Thankfully Nicole and I worked efficiently and were able to get them done however I got home later that I had hoped. I only had a very short time to play with Gavin. We were playing blocks most of the time before I went to my first crop. Sean worked a few hours of overtime while I was gone and Grandpa C hung out while Gav slept. I really have miss Gavin. I have not spent enough time with him the passed few days! I need my Gavin fix! :o)

59/365

Feb 27,
Yeah the BOB came! By BOB I mean my lovely new jogging stroller. I have be eyeing this puppy up for awhile and now that I am working it is in my garage. It was worth every penny. I can't wait for Gavin and I to go running with it! Now all I need is some cooperating weather...

58/365

Feb 26

After work today Grandpa Chamberlin watched Gavin while Sean and I went to dinner and to Jesus Christ Superstar with my parents, Eddie and Aurelija. I really enjoyed spending time with everyone, but this was not my favorite musical. Honestly, it creeped me out a little to see Jesus personified. However, Sean and I really like the voice of Mary and the songs that she sang. I hope to make this a tradition going to musicals with them!

57/ 365

Feb 25
Last week I bought Gavin big fat crayons after I noticed him intently watching me one day writing. He enjoys watching me and then coloring on the paper. Today Sean Gavin and I went to Great Northern to do some shopping. I needed to get a few items from Archivers and Joann's to prepare for my first crop this weekend. I also got a great steal from my favorite shoe store Aldo's (two great pairs of shoes for 30 dollars less than the original price of the 1 pair of leather boots! Woohoo!)

56/365

Feb 24

I just can't get over how much Gavin looks like a big boy here. More and more he is looking less like a baby and more like a toddler to me. I knew this first year would go by fast, but it went faster than I ever could have imagined. Part of me feels sad because I love him at his current stage however I look forward to watching him grow and experiencing new activities.